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At the age of 34, Joshua hit a point of remission. He had spent 3 and a half years alone n a house, with no medical treatment, undergoing pain and sickness that can't even be imagined. It seemed that after such a long torturous time, overnight something changed. He immediately fought himself up to begin rehabilitating himself, having always pushed himself to be the best possible person, physically, mentally, compassionately and spiritually that he could be. He wasn't back to 100%. In fact, he was only at about 30% of health. But he took the little mercy he was given and had no doubt that he would do everything with it that he could.
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| Joshua always fought to rebuild his body even during chemotherapy treatment |
He went to the gym to begin building his body back. The first several days he was only able to walk on a treadmill for 15 minutes. Then he would sit in the sauna to try to ease the excruciating pain that it had caused. Slowly, he worked his body back, walking, stretching, lifting. Doing anything and everything to gain back as much of his strength as possible. He had already lost a third of his life to sickness and torture, he wasn't going to let a second of wasted time go by that he had. He worked himself up to working out 5 and a half hours a day, eating ten times a day. He fought to finish everything he had begun; fine-tuning his screenplay (that had already been purchased), recording his album (signed to be released by a major record label), fine-tuning his voice, getting back everything he had lost and had been taken from him.
The thought of what this man has done in his sickness, imagining the greatness that he could achieve in his health. He has battled through life-threatening illnesses for years, losing inches off of his height from his spine being crushed in a car accident that no man should have lived through (detailed story to come) dropping down from 6'3'' and 285lbs with a 34" waist, losing 85lbs after throwing up so violently that it tore his stomach muscles leaving his abdomen herniated. He had fought to go to the chiropractor every day for a year, seeing a doctor once a week, flying back and forth all over the world, and then no hope. Nothing. The car accident with absolutely no treatment; being released from the hospital within 12 hours. Having been clinically dead for 2 hours before being resuscitated and lying in a coma for 40 days before waking, and being discharged the very next day(detailed story to come.In spite of the hells he's been through he fought. Fought to regain his strength. Fought to regain his body. Fought to regain his health. Fought to regain and refine his musical gifts that are so far beyond anything that has ever been heard or heard of. Music being the only true international language. Connecting the world. Changing the world. Everything that has been taken from him he has fought to reclaim so that he could play his music, share his life, use them to help those who have no voice for himself. His mission. His purpose. His calling. He fought. The true seventh son (detailed story to come), the last warrior, Joshua.
But remission did not last long. His health went bad again quickly to where he is the sickest he has ever been for the longest period of time. It's a strength that no man should ever have to have. It can not be experienced. It can not be learned.
He has lived his life believing that you are always worth something as is everyone. Never better, nor worse just wonderful people. That we are all special and all have a purpose that is greater than ourself, but also allows us to live our life in joy. Always believing that happiness is an emotion based upon a reaction to something, but joy is a condition of the spirit. Where we can truly be proud and not prideful. Live our life with conviction in love. Achieving success and greatness. Wanting, needing and helping every other person to have the same. Waiting for those surgeries or waiting for that day that God decides to heal him. Confused as to why it hasn't happened yet and why he has so many gifts, and worked so hard to refine them while battling illness and circumstances, reaching the point of torture that would have toppled any other man, hasn't been able to use them, with a heart that lies only in love.
Joshua has an understanding of human nature. Allowing him to forgive. Allowing him to forget. The pains that have been inflicted upon him by others, but yet never truly understanding the ability to hurt or destroy. Always giving the benefit of the doubt. Always believing the best in a person. And wanting to see them live their life righteously by accepting their flaws and accepting others' through truth of discernment and again through a heart filled with love that has no room for hate. One of the most important things he always says is to be honest. No matter how bad the truth is, it's always better than the best lie. Allowing everyone to know where they stand. Giving everyone the ability to accept each other. And knowing that the one thing that comes out of this is trust from the love that we all have in our heart. For we all have the same spirit. Therefore we live in one heart. One love.
He never has any arrogance, because he's always trying to better himself through the world and for the world but never being of this world, no matter what he is going through, no matter how restricted or limited, always with a heart for others.
(On a side note: To understand a little bit more about Joshua, so sick that many times he can not even stand, eat for days, sleep peacefully, for his day is filled with sufferings and they never stop. And every night collapsing from pure sickness and exhaustion. Spending time, even on social media, wanting to talk and reply, thinking and listening of everyone and will put off his starvation and dehydration and his pain to do just that for he is always a man of his word. Many times having to be dragged away from the computer so he can nourish his body and try to rest. Trying to pick up his guitar when he can barely move his hands to finish what he has started because of what his music has to say. Not being able to use his beautiful, powerful voice. What our team wanted to add is to explain why he has not been able to get his surgeries, life saving surgeries, as of now, just one of the many reasons is he has been treated so badly by the medical community that his survival rate of living through these surgeries is just a few percent. Having trouble finding any physician that will do this because of the liability. All of this has allowed him to be able to relate to all pain and all sickness. All sufferings. Though he has always had a tremendous heart, the pain he feels for others stays with him day and night. And how he wants to do so much of course for himself and his family, but for everyone. He is not infallible. He sees people in this world taking for granted their blessings, manipulating and using others for personal gain. Causing frustration and even anger for him. But always uplifting us all with a smile or a comment or a gesture, making joy and love the priority. The Truth. Though we believe what he has gone through and what he is going through no man ever has, we all know that there are people out there that are suffering that truly need help. And there are many people that are out there that have the ability to do so, but don't. Whether he gets better and is out in the open for the world to see, or he dies, this will not detour us from his purpose that is now our purpose. What a tragedy to not see this man get better and enjoy the gifts that he has been given as we have stated earlier that no one has ever heard the likes of. And not to be able to help others reveal, live their gifts and the beauty that each person holds.
Additionally; because some of the work that he has done he had attended several award shows. Putting on his smile, uplifting others, while going through incredible pain. As he had given his word that he would be there as he has so missed his colleagues and many friends. Taking whatever opportunity he has to keep growing and embracing whatever joys there are. Joshua is not well known through out the world as what we call celebrity due mainly to his life of illness. Though his family is and always has been, yet he has had to work for everything on his own. His family deriving from selfishness, which has allowed him to be selfless and have self-worth. He is what many call a behind the scenes man. Fame is something that he never wanted. Just health and the ability to love and be loved unconditionally. Though now it is something that he wants and embraces. As he is always honest, he would want us to say that it is for himself as well as others. He wants to shine. The most amazing voice, so powerful, playing the guitar like no other with such passion and intensity, writing songs, embracing every human emotion. But as for the several people on our team, we can state truthfully with no doubt that the biggest reason for wanting this is how he has come to realize that he can help every person. He has never doubted his purpose. He is a man of such wisdom, vision and strength and never lacking in conviction or grace; that in his heart he knows that he can help change the lives of every person on this planet for the better, even if it's one person at a time and takes him his entire life. A leader among leaders. And when you read this, understand, we all can do this. It only takes one person to start. Living by these three mottos: Your words and your actions are only as good as the heart behind them. That if you are selfless, there is no need to be selfish for we are all getting and giving, and understanding that to lead we must follow and to follow we must lead. These three simple things will change the world. It all starts and ends with one thing: love.)
to be continued...
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