This anecdote came to my mind while I was trying to figure out what aspect of my husband I wanted to share today.
A few months into our relationship (Joshua had already proposed and of course I said yes) my cousin called me. This was streamed for a few reasons: first, my family almost never called me, and second we were going to be attending her wedding the following weekend so I was going to be seeing her shortly.
My cousin is about 15 years older than I. I was 20 at the time that I met my husband, but still never would have thought she'd turn yup me for advice. It wasn't as though we had ever even been close. I don't mean to sound cold or heartless; I simply want to convey just how out of the blue and frankly blind sided I was by her call much less it's purpose.
She asked me how I was doing. I told her great, I'm young, I'm in love (assuming that our gossiping family had already phone treed my first relationship) and I'm happy. What about you? You must be so excited, I said.
She said to me I am, but...
I said what's wrong?
She said, I love him. You know I love him, but I keep worrying, is he the one? Is he the Only one out there for me? What If 5 years down the road I met someone better?
At this point I feel awful for her fiance. He was a great guy. They had been together for 8 years at this point. I was comforting. I was kind to her. I made jokes that I'm so blessed because Joshua has none of the stereotypical make habits like leaving the toilet seat up. And I agreed to lend him to train her future husband good bathroom etiquette. But I wad confused. Of course I was a child then. Still feel as though I am most days.
I told you that to tell you this. No matter what we have been through, from the moment I met husband I have never doubted that he was it, the one, the best and only man out there for me.
I am truly blessed because I found my soul mate so young. And there could never be anyone that could be more perfect for me. I know that with no doubt, the pinky thing I've never had doubt about because no one is better than he. And I mean that as this. No one has a more intoxicating voice. A more generous spirit than my Joshua. No one can make me laugh and cry, wipe away my tears and fill my heart with safety and peace like he can. He makes me human. And opens up emotions and thoughts in me that I would never have had without him. He is all I want and need. If we had no money, no home, no anything as long as we were in it together, I would have joy and peace.
I hope, wish and pray that each and every one of you find your Joshua; because it is a blessing that we may not all deserve, but certainly all need.
