From the GSET TEAM

Quote by Joshua Jet Vaughan

From the GSET Team: Joshua's Wife Anna Bella had written us a letter regarding Joshua's experiences from her point of view, but also their life together.  A deeper glimpse into this amazing man who inspires and drives our work.  We have broken up Anna's letter into several segments that we will intertwine with segments of his story, as it is of great length as well.  And when getting into details of his life, the shocking horrors of what he has been through and what he is going through, along with what he has been able to accomplish through this, from what he has done physically, to different paths he has taken in his life. How he has helped so many. And the struggle of his true passion and gift of music that very few have heard. Singing and playing music, when in just partial health, that there's no one that can even compare. Believing in his healing by God's hand so that the world can see him for the wonderful righteous man that he is, but also, so the world can see others that are going through struggles of their own. All accepting and delivering what God intended for us and why Jesus died for us. The spirit that connects us. And it always and only comes down to one thing with Joshua: Love. 

No man has lived through the horrors that exist in this world in the quantity and frequency that Joshua has.  In the bible, Jesus Christ said, "Very truly I tell you, whoever believes in me will do the works I have been doing, and they will do even greater things than these, because I am going to the Father." John 14:12.  We believe that this most heartily applies to the man we all know and love.  And as such, we must take the time to do him and the story of his life justice.  

What he has lived through has been filled with such tribulation to the point of being unbelievable, and as we've worked with Joshua we've not only seen the terrors of the sickness that plagues him, but also the horrors that mankind is not only capable of, but seems to relish in at his expense.  We've discussed as a team, and don't find it coincidental that there are twelve of us that work here on this project.  

Paul teaches us, in the bible, that we are to be all things to all people. (To the weak I became weak, to win the weak. I have become all things to all people so that by all possible means I might save some. 1 Corinthians 9:22)

He has taught us that questioning our faith is how we grow, not to fear condemnation for it.  When Jesus said "My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?" (Matt 27:46) Joshua teaches us that it is okay to question, because Jesus questioned. Because Jesus did nothing in vain; being without meaning or purpose.  Just as we should live our lives the same way.  Without questions, you can't find the answers.  He taught us that knowing we are never going to reach perfection allows us to know we are perfect.  We were given that by God and by Jesus.  Understanding that money is not the enemy, it is the love of money.  That Saul, who was a persecutor of Christians, a soldier and tax collector, a murderer, a thief; but God saw his heart and offered him redemption and then changed his name to Paul.  Job who was favored amongst all men in the world and suffered for God.  Joshua knows his strength, reads the bible, studied and prayed, comparing, praying, and Joshua lives by this.  But his journey doesn't make sense.  He doesn't live in sin; he has always lived righteously.  He has lived in the world, but never been of this world.  He had never even spoken a swear word until he began getting sick again so rapidly this last time because of the way his illness affects his body and his brain.  The first time he took the Lord's name in vain he was driving.  He pulled the car over and prayed for forgiveness for twenty minutes.  So close to God that he has questioned because of having seen too much of God and not understanding.

Joshua became so close to God, praying 16 hours a day, while he was lying in bed for three  and half years, too sick to have a life of any quality; couldn't eat, couldn't sleep, couldn't drink.  Yet he never questioned because he believed it was for a purpose of which God has given us all one. And Joshua believes that if we each embrace that purpose, that together united, the world can be the way God intended it to be.  Finally he got a little bit better, only about 35% and was in remission.  But within 6 months goes out of remission again; and still he never questioned for another two years. His questioning was based upon confusion seeming as if the bible applies to everyone except him.  But still believing, wanting and needing so much, but out of everything longing for the relationship that he had with God that has now passed.  In his heart loving God completely, living his life through the Spirit, but hurts so badly it feels as if God has turned His back on him.  He can't understand.  He would ask why? What have I done.  Tell me I'll fix it, but knowing that he's done nothing.  He's repented of his sins.  He has always lived righteously with conviction.

This last bought of sickness has destroyed him physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually.  He's got nothing left, but still he gets up and does things; though he has no moments of happiness or levity, or peace but still searches and finds joy.  He wants his health, wondering why he was given these gifts and worked so hard when he's never been able to use nor apply them.  Why everyone is so busy with their own lives.  We're people.  We're supposed to love each other and come together.  For we are our brother's keeper.  The more we love each other, the more we will become fulfilled.  Allowing us to have the success that God wants for us all through dignity, grace, patience, compassion and so much more.  Joshua's worked too hard.  He's never understood arrogance, has never lived his life in arrogance and through his sickness has given him a greater understanding of this as well as many other things.  He's been living the last twenty years of his life in extreme illness and the last ten years suffering to the point of torture.  Yet still, he never complains and always pushes forward.  He knows what it was like to be confident and convicted and no matter what anybody said or did, he never felt less than.  He understands what it is to be unappreciated by everyone, but appreciating everyone; respecting everyone.  Always: no matter how sick, taking hours of his time, starving and in pain, dehydrated; taking the time to talk, listen, love. One example of love is learning about people, asking questions, wanting to know their story, wanting to know them, wanting to know you.

And no matter what has happened to him, no matter what he has been put through, never doubting God, never questioning;there is no way that we are not going to do this man justice, that we are not going to do it right, because if this man dies there is no way that we will let his story go untold.  And we will carry it on for others. He's staring death in the face each and every day and he knows it. He has a dozen life threatening diseases that he fights through every day, but he doesn't let it get in the way, and that's what it is to be strong. And people don't want to see it. The leader of leaders.  Of all men. It is not his purpose for others to feel pity for him.  And his purpose is not to live in vain or die in vain.

Thank you so much for your continuing support and love.

Quote by Joshua Jet Vaughan